theunknown-abyss asked: Although, I understand the sense of importance it is to have towards someone, you can't be desperate about it. The amount of love and care can be unequal in a relationship and work, but you aren't suppose to give everything that defines you to that. There are two parts to life..your individuality and your connection with that partner. It had to happen sooner or later..or you just regret that moment you didn't ask and you never found out how that person felt. Make room for the pain and move.
If it wasn’t for the fact that she was one of the most important people in my life for the better part of a decade that wouldn’t be so hard.
It’s not romance I’m missing, I miss the safety she gave me, the understanding she had.
Lately I’ve been an emotional train wreck.
I’ve gone back to my old ways just for a sense a familiarity, I haven’t been sober in days.
I really wish I’d never told you how I feel, I miss when you didn’t have a clue and I could still be close to you.
I opened up just like they all say you should, I told you everything. I showed you the side of me that NO ONE sees. You saw me at my most vulnerable and I guess I can’t blame you for not liking what you saw, I sure as fuck don’t.
You were one of my best friends, we didn’t see each other everyday but you understood the demons locked up in my head. You understood that both of us suffered the same disease. I held on to every word you said and it honestly helped, I felt better I felt happy for awhile.
But now you are nowhere to be seen, you don’t talk to me anymore and when you do it feels like you’d rather do anything but.
I miss you.
I miss your smile.
I miss the way your face lights up when you laugh.
They way your nose crinkles when I tease you.
The way you smell.
The way your skin feels on mine.
They way your hair felt on my face.
The way you taste.
My god I’ve ruined my life, without you I don’t want to wake up anymore. I don’t want to force myself through the day.
When you left you took with you all my hope, all my pride, and all that was left of my confidence.
Now I am nothing, I feel nothing short of paralyzing agony
I can’t even cry, I can’t even get angry at you.
Please, come back.
Please, fix this broken man.